Never Satisfied
There's realizations, hesitations
That don't put my mind at ease
I've never with someone I really like
So I break hearts as I please
I'm cautious, unattachable
Maniupulative with a cold heart
My feelings are never considered
Their hearts are the target, and I'm the dart
The dart that pierces their emotion
As they're begging me to stay
The dart that causes such commotion
When they realize they've been played
The dart of poison is within me
It's been artificially placed
It's from the guys, don't you see
The ones that used to make my heart race
The guys that I have fell for
Who used me and lead me on
The ones that made me feel like a whore
And used my heart as their pawn
The girl they liked when they first saw
Because I was something new
But I guess there too many flaws
Leaving my heart battered and bruised
Loneliness, desperation
Is all that's left of me
While hurting others is the sensation
That helps me keep my speed
The speed to keep on going
When there's nothing left to say
The speed to keep others from knowing
Cause I'm an expert at this game
Ignorance is bliss on their part
Until I go in for the kill
As the thorns I embed into their hearts
Are thrown randomly, at will
The thorns that make my heart unattainable and cold
As my tears are replaced with theirs
No guy can get through, no matter how bold
'Cause I'll just wave goodbye as they stare
One Last Tear
You smile and you say without a care
"She's not the one I wish would be there
She's not the smile I want to see
She's not the one that makes me happy
She doesn't have the laughter I want to hear
She doesn't have the perfection I want in the mirror
She loves me, yeah, so what, I know
But she doesn't have the touch that makes my smile show
Her hair isn't perfect, she's not a genius
Her kiss I'll forget, her hug I won't miss
He sits back, looking smug, after he put this girl down
But he also sees how the girl he wants, isn't around
And how the one girl that is and was going to be
There for him always, but this guy doesn't see
Your she "doesn't and don'ts" have put me down
So the next time you look, I won't be around
Since my smile won't do, my kiss doesn't compare
Nor does my laughter, or long auburn hair
Now you're left all alone
Through never having either of us
Too blind and naive to tell the difference
Between the fine line of love and lust
So this girl walks away
With one last tear falling from her eye
Yet smiling that smile wisely
Cause she knows it's the last tear she'll cry
Girl in the Mirror
I made the mistake of glancing into the mirror
That girl looking back at me
I can't look her in the eye
She looks at me as if she's looking for an answer
But I have nothing left to say
She's been crying again
Her mascara smeared around her eyes
Her lipgloss long gone
And her hair is lifeless
Skin so pale it's translucent
The only bit of color
Is the honey of her eyes
I want ot tell her it will be ok
to stop crying
But I don't make promises
When I can't come through with them
So I turn to leave and turn off the light
And the girl in the mirror disappears
I know I'll see her again
And maybe then
I'll have the answers she seeks
Forgetting You
I can't figure out exactly it is I should do
I have conflicting thoughts and feelings for you
My head is in torment, my heart is confused
My dignity is in shreds, my pride is bruised
My heart says I should hold on and not let you go
But my head reminds me of not long ago
So which is it? My head or my heart
This decision alone is tearing me apart
Everytime I see you, I'm sure the hurt shows
But you don't know how deep it really does go
It's going to take time, before I finally learn
My head and my back I really should turn
So it seems my head has won the fight
I don't know if I'm happy, it doesn't feel right
Forgetting you won't come easy but I will try
But please forgive me or I can't help but cry
By your actions and words, it's all about you
Can you see that you're hurting me too?
It's too hard to see you, my stomach gets butterflies
But all you can see are the tears in my eyes
Conflicting thoughts again...I can't stand to be near you
But I hate to see you so
Leaving me with no direction and nowhere to go
Why can't you see what you're doing to me
But I guess that's how you are
And always will be
Too stubborn to listen
Too hypocritical to tell
How the one girl that loves you
Is the one you're putting through hell
